April 2011
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Manifesting Mayhem
I recently got in a little debate with a friend of mine about how to go about manifesting what you want. We were speaking on internet chat so I don’t know if we were mis-communicating because that’s what we do or if we were impeded from clarity because of the nature of type-talking. The issue was that I felt you needed to practice where she felt you could pop into such power. At...
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Freedom from my Flaws
Several weeks ago I yanked some hair out to send to the UK for allergy testing. I’m so sick of being sick, but more than that, I’m sick of getting RASHES. What in the hell. No, not there. I get them on my arms and face you jerk wad.
Every day I come home to check the mail with hopes of finding out what in the hell is wrong with me! This morning it arrived in my email and I...
Balancing Act
While I’m happy to be working, I’m not happy to be writing less. This, however, gave me a smile. I haven’t really done anything but peruse the front page, but I love that it’s out there.
http://www.irresponsibles-anonymous.com/responsibility-in-12-steps
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Complete!
I’ve had a lot of coffee on this beautiful spring day, but I also walked one of the dogs and finished with “The Happiness Project.” Does anyone know how to underline? You might guess I didn’t go to work today, my first day. They called and said they’d made a mistake and to come in tomorrow. I kept telling myself, “This is great. I can watch the...
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Happiness is Superior
I’ve finished with November and began December in Gretchen Rubin’s “The Happiness Project. November mirrored my dilemma of self more than the others. In November, Rubin focused on her critical nature as a source of unhappiness. She claimed that criticizing makes us appear smarter and feel superior. I hadn’t really thought of my own insatiability as serving those...
March 2011
17 posts
Happiness is a cat named Joe
Many, many moons ago, I had a best friend who’s name changed from Bolifer to Joe quite by accident. I’d gone through a phase of saying “Hey, Joe” to people as a I greeted them. I think I picked it up at the record store I was working at which must have been tied to Jimi Hendrix. I even believed that the true name of God must be Joe, because I believe that God is truly in...
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“You are an explorer, and you represent our species, and the greatest good you...”
– Terence McKenna (via elige)
I’m stealing this from another blogger because Terrance McKenna wisdom actually does make me happy. So, now, as I explore happiness, I need to consider a new idea. A new idea? I’m not very technical. I can only rearrange words in slightly new or at...
Torture
I’ve been missing the last week because I’ve really been trying to dedicate to affirmations, meditations, ruminations hoping to have something to report. Everything is the same.
I keep trying. This morning I read on how to be better at the law of attraction. The first thing, you’ve heard it before, stated “you’re already doing it.” Ugh. I thought...
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A Little Nugget
I’ve just finished Gretchen Rubin’s chapter on mindfulness. Yesterday, I gave up early, but today I stayed with her and kept my mind on her words. As I mentioned previously, the ending chapters are much shorter than how she started the book so I can, at least, sense a small accomplishment more quickly. I’m still quite impressed with her vulnerability in exposing her quirks so...
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Suffering Boredom for Enlightenment
When I first picked up “The Happiness Project” at my aunt’s house in late fall, the idea excited me. The words inspired me. I received the book in January as a gift from my husband’s parents and I couldn’t wait to get at it. I began reading often and at length with eagerness.
Today, I can barely finish a section of a chapter. My eagerness comes in closing the...
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Japanese Smiles
**DONATING ALL PROFIT TO TSUNAMI VICTIMS FROM CD SALE**
Just about everyone is watching what is happening in Japan as the number of missing, dead, and displaced rises. Debates on the news about nuclear fallout threaten anyone’s happiness, but would we want to turn a blind eye? This week, the House of Representatives passed a bill that would effectively close several earthquake/tsunami...
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Open to Interpretation
“Ask yourself whether you are happy, and you cease to be so.” - John Stuart Mills
Miss Gretchen quoted this, in disagreement with it, providing three different ideas of what it really meant. Not having read it in context, I wasn’t sure myself. My first reaction to the quote is that the question is, well, a question. Questioning yourself stirs doubt. Doubt is far from the...
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Happy Day!
I woke up and dreamed about winning the lottery while trying to put my actual dreams in order. I imagined myself in this two million dollar home I saw online. I finally kicked myself out of bed to feed the dogs and whilst waiting outside for them, I “tapped” a little positive energy into me. Then I did something rash.
Not having any money and a little over-extended in credit...
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Reinforced
This morning I sold a CD to a completely faceless person on CD Baby. That’s my first totally anonymous sale. Neat. Yesterday my friend bought me on iTunes, so I got some love, too. There it is. Reinforcement. And my hormones have calmed down, so I’m actually happier!
Reinforcement
A little reinforcement for all of the efforts I make (the video, the CD, the writing) would be nice. Might even make me happy. Let you know when that happens.
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Unhappy in the Land of Smiles (Part 2)
When I had felt well again, I called the cheap-o dentist and told them what my needs were. They wanted me to come in more than three weeks later. I asked for something earlier and had about a week to wait. Unfortunately, my tooth broke in the interim. Now, here I was, with grandiose ideas that I’d not only get my tooth fixed, but I’d become the voice for their commercials.
I let...
Unhappy in the Land of Smiles (Part 1)
I’m hormonal. It’s no joke. And, until Americans realize they’re being played by corporations and not by idealists, I can’t really see anyone about it because I can’t afford to. This morning, I went to the cheapest dentist around to let them know I’m hormonal.
They cater to kids. Surprisingly, I almost drove right by the cartoonish, multi-colored...
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The Weather
“And I feel, so much depends on the weather…” Stone Temple Pilots
I know I’ve been tapping and dedicating myself to chiseling down my goals, but I have to say, it’s been sunny and a bit warmer up here in the mountains the last two days. When thinking on what to say tonight and my good mood, I realized this correlation. While I do believe at least half of my cheer...
Procrastination
Today I’m rather pleased with myself. Yesterday, I “tapped” on procrastination. I don’t really consider myself a procrastinator. When things need to get done, I do them. However, in the EFT sessions provided online, I realized I miss out on doing the things that will get me to where I really want to go.
I can’t attribute my dedication to myself entirely to EFT. ...
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Something a Little Different
While I was sick, I made batches of Top Ramen and added lots of my own flavors so I ended up with a few “oriental” seasoning packets. Yesterday, I came into three bags of standard potatoes. Don’t ask. Now I have to figure out what to do with them. Yesterday, I made mush. Not the greatest, but if you’re broke and need to be inventive like me, here it is.
10 medium...
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What a Relief!
Obviously, the main issue I’ve had with “The Secret” people is the pressure, especially Abraham, puts on you to think perfectly. It’s paranoia inducing and sabotaging. However, as a teen, I had a knack for manifesting through intention so I’ve had a hard time cutting the cord.
The last nine days I’ve been involved in a free “tapping” seminar...
Staying Power
One of the powerful ingredients in satisfaction is staying power. I haven’t kept up on my little chakra tips. I’m struggling with a free “tapping” seminar. I haven’t been writing consistently. I also haven’t been reading “The Happiness Project.” I was sick.
I did get back to the guitar today. I am switching between five chords rather well...
February 2011
15 posts
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Chakra Healing
Yeah, I told you I’m a junkie.
Two weeks ago I was offered a free Chakra seminar over the Internet. Some techniques would be taught so I figured, “Why not?”
I did learn three pretty easy techniques and thought they could be useful in leading a more fulfilling life. Unfortunately, getting any benefit from them at the time proved impossible.
Not only did I find the...
Sick.
I saw this cold giving me the eye last week, sizing me up and down. Surely, I couldn’t be taken in by such smug charm. I coyly went through my business on high only to find myself thrown into the arms of destructive lover. I am sick.
Fake it 'til you make it.
I’m not certain who first said it, but it’s been repeated a gazillion times in a billion forms. I truly thought this chapter from Rubin might really excite me, but her spiritual master for the month is Saint Terese who, apparently, did just that.
Mrs. Rubin continues to belittle those who, her words, lazily allow unhappiness and the benefits of pity to rule them. Now, I’ve...
Trap of the Jinx
My husband, another musician, has a pretty hefty meeting coming on Monday. I’m not going to tell you who BECAUSE, I’m afraid I might jinx it. Yeah, that’s right. And “The Secret” followers will know that the little doubt in my head that things will go as they should is just thing to sabotage something that could change our lives.
In fact, when he researched this...
"I see all good people...
Turn their heads each day so satisfied I’m on my way…” - Yes (the band, Yes.)
At least, I hope to be. My latest in my happiness search was a free chakra workshop online. I tried. I really tried. But the woman’s voice was so abrasive and every few minutes the host would cut in with the sell. I hate the sell. How can anyone find happiness amidst a marketing scheme?
I...
Happy Valentine's Day!
Not lustful. Not passionate. Not loving. Not kind. Not sweet. Not fulfilling. Happy. We really abuse that word and the concept.
On God.
I am now into August in Gretchen Rubin’s, “The Happiness Project.” Her mission this month is to emulate a spiritual master. Interestingly, this chapter might be only a quarter of the size of her chapter on money buying happiness.
Yesterday, I thought I might really enjoy this as her best chapter, but, again, I’m not too thrilled with her pasting what blog readers had to...
Happiness is Brief...
And it will come back. Holding onto it, well, you know the saying “if you love someone…”
So this is excerpted from an email exchange I had moments ago.
“Well, that’s my point, really. You don’t STAY happy. Oh, whoopie! My dog just got run over by a car. Let me grab my party hat and clean him up off the street. You can still be happy thinking of the...
Making Top Ramen...
would be a stretch for me right now.
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Purpose is the Key Ingredient
Last night I stayed up until 4AM working on voiceover auditions, then realized I couldn’t submit them. I wasn’t allowed to. Gate keepers are everywhere.
Though I had nowhere in particular to be today, I stepped out of bed at 9:30 AM still in need of sleep. I quickly discovered a radio station in the Netherlands wants me to send my CD. Nice.
Around 10:30 I began working with a...
““I just want someone to talk to…”
That was another...”
– The Girl with Her Heart on Her Sleeve ♥ ♥ ♥: I just want someone to talk to…
Quoting Friends
”If God didn’t want me to have negativity, depression, and a desire to obliterate the human race, he wouldn’t have given them to me…” - J. Schultz
They say acceptance and gratitude are key to happiness. I’d say this sums it up!
Pass me a roll?
I’ve been trying to figure out what to say about Rubin’s “July” chapter, the money chapter. The chapter contains more pages than the last five months of the year combined. Or so it seems to me. Just as I was beginning to find her redundant and lazy, she mentioned in the last two pages that her happiness project was, possibly, making her less happy.
I wonder if...
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God, Make It So
Everything can be accomplished by changing your thoughts. This is a pretty common theme. Once you start really getting involved with people like Abraham, you also find out your responsible for ever ache, every cold, every accident, cancer, assault, and yes, I’m sure the economy was because our minds are feeble, too. That made me a nervous wreck! And, due to the hefty responsibility,...
The Secret
Once in a while, this email show’s up in my box sent from me entitled, “The Secret.” I don’t exactly know how I set this reminder up, but I do recall it was a few years ago. I thought I deleted them all from this memo service who’s name I can’t even recall. That’s how invested in my future I am.
I decided to open it up. Sometimes these things inspire...
January 2011
17 posts
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Get your Happy Out of My Face
This morning, before I’d even woken up, I had nearly a dozen email from people and companies and people who ARE companies on how to be happy. The very demand on people to be happy is maddening! I just flashed back to George Carlin’s “Have a Nice Day” routine.
The irony is if people would lay off the demand to be happy, we’d all be, yes, happier. I’m...
A Delicious Meal
would make me super happy right now. Do any of the guru’s tell you to stuff yourself silly?
Phhhht.
No happiness today.
I read. Check.
I worked on CD business. Check.
I was grateful to friends. Check.
I organized my desk. Check.
I received a gift in the mail (I love mail) that I’d ordered. Check.
Happiness? I’ll put it on tomorrow’s to do list.
The Money Trap
You’ve probably noticed I’ve stopped talking about Gretchen Rubin. Well, I got to the chapter that deals with money and I just couldn’t go any further. Rubin’s research of other people’s research concluded, essentially, that money doesn’t buy happiness, but being broke causes you to focus on your… how should I say… inadadequacies.
I began this...
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Tea Bag, Not Tea Party
I had nothing to write earlier today. For some reason, I decided to have tea. The tea wrote it for me. No, I’m not a seer who reads leaves, just tags.
“Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.” - Booker T Washington
That should make me feel better. I’m absolutely sure...
One Step Forward
You know how it goes. I just finished typing a blog about money and suddenly I found myself on an entirely different page. I may have to suggest to tumblr that they save drafts as frequently as gmail does. I’m on my eleventh post and this is the second time that’s happened and my work’s been gone. Poof.
I know what you’re thinking. I could write this in word or even...
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"Wish it, Want it, Do it."
That’s the title of Brian Griffin’s fictional book that Bill Maher called pile of heaping mess or something related to dog poop.
I agree. Today I received a letter from one of my many subscriptions to bliss chasers. It was a personal letter, actually, from a kind woman who thought, since I don’t have cash, that I’d appreciate Abraham’s free site.
You don’t...
"You Make Me So...
Very Happy.”
Blood, Sweat, and Tears. This band is overlooked. I suspect it’s because they have commas in their name.
I’m writing today to ask you, my reader(s) to let me know how you’re digesting my blog. For those of you who have read my blogs, you know I usually write about my strife with severe comedy, but I honestly don’t know how this is going.
Do I cite...
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Man's Best Friend
This morning I cussed at one of our dogs. She’s the mother of the other two for which I have a particular grudge against her. We haven’t much food to give them and she’s a chronic over eater. I also believe she has pica because she eats anything and everything. This morning she woke me with gag sounds as she puked up a dark brown stain on the floor. I shouted my disdain at...
"Every Day...
in every way, things are getting better and better.”
You probably think that’s a John Lennon quote. It’s from Jose Silva and I heard Steven Colbert say it last night.
If you don’t know Silva, he’s a mind science guy who took off in the 50s. My guess is he was taking off at the same time Scientology was. I can’t say for sure. There are also common...
Goal: Happiness; Result: Anxiety
I began fretting over happiness just after my boyfriend broke up with me near Thanksgiving and my Grandfather died on Christmas Day. 2005 began with a bang!
I’d been living and working with my grandparents which gave me time, as I’d wanted, to be with them before their passing. Also, there was a sort of a quid pro quo in which I was able to pursue the arts without fear while I...