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Trap of the Jinx
My husband, another musician, has a pretty hefty meeting coming on Monday. I’m not going to tell you who BECAUSE, I’m afraid I might jinx it. Yeah, that’s right. And “The Secret” followers will know that the little doubt in my head that things will go as they should is just thing to sabotage something that could change our lives.
In fact, when he researched this person earlier today, he started pointing out lawsuits and mishaps the individual had been in. I panicked and started shushing him, immediately. This sparked a quick tiff. Frustrating. I want to experience bliss, just once. ONCE. Truth is, he thought he had a pretty big opportunity before and told everyone. He was conned. I’ve been through it again. And again. And again. Always hopeful. Often let down.
Right now I feel ashamed because I’m apprehensive about getting excited until I know it’s real because I’ve been so sure, so excited, and so let down. Those bliss sellers would tell me it’s because I doubt, but they’d tell me that I was unaware of my own doubt if I felt completely self-assured.
So I’m just going to wait it out and try not to jinx it. You know?
A frustrated victim of motivational speakers, Arena begins her look at the happiness industry with us while reading The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin. She will take us back to a Millionaire Mind Seminar where her quest to live her dreams brought her to a standstill with debt, legal trouble, and living in her worst nightmare - geographically, even.
Amy Arena holds a B.A. in American Studies from San Francisco State University. A respected actress and world-renown singer (at least underground) , Arena has written several peer-appreciated, but not-yet-produced plays, has published poetry and won awards for her short stories on websites that no longer exist, and produced an album that she can't afford to hype with the finesse of the happiness experts.
